Every journey has a launch point.
A leap of faith
A deep dissatisfaction
No matter what it is, journeys must start somewhere. And usually when the journey begins we, as humans, have the clear destination set before us in the distance. I mean, where would a runner be without knowing how to pace themselves for the final destination?
And so we approach life the same way…
A start and a finish, pacing ourselves along the way, putting limits on our days, our lives and those around us. We have our mind set, our path is sure (or so we think) and we are calm and collected.
Then it happens.
The collision, the stumble, the disorientation, the boredom or sometimes just a u-turn.
And now the journey we were sure of, that we had put our trust in has changed trajectory. The mind now races, the path is unsure or completely gone and our emotions are everywhere. It is here that many either stand still or simply just quit the journey they are on. We settle for “this is the way it is” or maybe “this was all wrong from the beginning”, whatever that voice speaks at that place. Either way, things are just not the same.
And our soul is immediately not well and the life we had at the beginning drains away like the slow ebb of a dying heartbeat.
And it happens to us all, young, old, male, female, it happens. So, what now?
Honestly I sat cross-legged a few years ago and wondered the same. The disillusionment had set in somewhere on what I thought was the perfect journey with a clear destination. And with that came the grasping for life and gasping for air. And it was at this point that something began to penetrate my soul and choices needed to be made.
Immobilizing fear? Doubt? Paralyzation?
All the above!
But sometimes we must just step into the craziness of our soul. And it was here that I began to allow my mind to unravel, a new way to be charted, for my will to become not mine but that of something higher than myself, and for my emotions to become raw and then one by one be healed. A process, yes definitely! One that’s been mastered? Not yet…but that’s the journey!
Comfortable? No way! Hard? Seemed impossible!
The more I allowed myself to be unraveled from the places I’d created for myself (notice I said “I created”), the clearer many things became though others became a far, distant, dim, impossible dream.
Then, as I let go and surrendered more and more, I realized something…it’s so simple…
The simple truth that I was being taught to love myself and be loved and let go of MY created journey and step into the one that had been created for me before time, one made uniquely for me,one that only I can accomplish that, though seemingly impossible, sparked an excitement in me I didn’t understand. A deep peace settled and a new feeling emerged…rest in my soul.
Step in…that’s all I had to do. One small step and the journey began. One small, fearfully whispered “Yes”, having no idea what I was saying yes to. Something that appeared would cost me so much, yet knowing deep inside the reward would always outweigh the cost and, the destination, though unclear, was a so clear. It was a call to more than I was and more than I could ever be on my own, a destination always marked out for me but was awaiting an appointed time.
So step in I did. But stepping in requires leaving things behind, some that need to be left and others that are hard to leave. Forward motion requires focus on what’s ahead, not what is in the past.
Freedom? Yes…but a difficult freedom at times. You see being undone is vulnerable and scary and unsure and we simply don’t like that, as we are a culture of guarded, put-together people. You know, it’s only the crazy ones that share all that inner “soul” stuff. We who are “wiser” must keep it all together and make it look good…all with a dying soul.
So as I write today I’m further into the journey, have had successes and failures and have skinned my knees a lot from falling or just from kneeling and crying out. And it continues…
As I know, it will never be over until moving into eternity so with my backpack slung over my shoulder and my aviators firmly on my face, this girl walks on, steps in, lives full and doesn’t turn back, facing the light of tomorrow that is impregnated with a plethora of hopes and dreams. Limitless dreams!
Soulife lesson today…
There are always two paths…one well worn, sure and safe and as Robert Frost penned the other “less traveled”. What will you choose?
Let’s chat! Are you ready to take that step into new and away from where you are? Are you ready to let go and move into your future? Let me journey with you into a real, full, exciting, healthy Soulife!
Who knows…the you, you were created to be may just be around the corner of the road!
Until next time Soulife friends…Blessings!