Counselors will say that reflection is a good thing. It’s where we can see our life now in the reflection of what has happened or decisions we have made in the past, seeing where we have come from, in order to adjust our steps into the future. It is also a way to “talk back” through what was said and done to allow a person to truly understand the situation they are currently going through or have experienced.
I am in agreement that reflection can be good. BUT (yes there is always a but), reflection can be the very thing that invokes a paralysis of sorts that will either keep us bound in the place we are currently residing or even cause us to revert back to the comfortable places of the past (no matter how destructive they are). It may well be a cause for correction for the future to get back on track or send us on a detour of self reliance and pride that is fueled by anger, regret, bitterness or unforgiveness. In short, to quote Pastor Steven Furtick, “our perspective can be our prison or our our passport”, what keeps us in bondage or what releases us to fly.
So now I reflect…on how I started this blog and where it is today.
Beginnings are always just endings of something else. Like when you left home the first time, new beginning but ending of life as you knew it. You looked in that rear view mirror until what was left behind disappeared into the horizon. Or maybe what was behind was too painful to look at so you just didn’t look at all. Either way, that ending was a new beginning. And you were walking into what would become your new “normal”.
As I write today, I realize that this blog was birthed out of an ending that was coming, but not yet here, and I, in an effort to navigate my own future, tried to jump ahead to the new without allowing the door to close on the old. Funny how we do that, wanting to hold on to both what is in front and what is behind all the while wondering why it is tearing us apart. All that came from that was calamity, frustration and finally quitting. No writing, no dreaming.
So in this I realized the proverbial “one door closes and another door opens” is not entirely the truth. You see the choice is always ours. True that one door opens, but our choice is to walk through the new door and close the old one behind us. Or we can leave multiple doors open and try to hop in an out of them, never releasing one to fully walk into the next. Which brings me to the next obstacle…the letting go.
You see, we have a choice to continue to look in that rear view mirror, to long for what has been, to be paralyzed by the mindsets of the past or let it go and move into the new place. You simply cannot drive in two directions at once and expect to get anywhere! Or walk through more than one door at a time and see any progress! That is called making no progress! (some would say insanity!)
But we do exactly this. Fear whispers that we can never do what is in front of us for multitudes of reasons, and comfort beckons us back to complacency and what will be death to the dreams of the future. Competing voices…and always a choice…
So today I choose…I choose forward not backward, life not death, dreams not complacency, risk not security, passion not passivity, and Jesus…period. One yes…one yes I said years ago but today with a renewed, passionate cry from my soul…YES! Yes to what’s bigger than me, yes to crazy, wild, unimaginable trust and yes to the only One who can truly complete me and fill my soul to overflow. There is SO much excitement ahead!
Today I look in the rear view mirror and allow many things of my yesterdays to fade into the distance. Not sure what the future fully holds but knowing my future is in capable hands. I choose to let go and drive forward, full speed ahead…and in the (somewhat modified) words of Peter Pan with Jesus sprinkled in…
“All it takes if faith, trust and a little ‘Jesus’ dust…to go to a place where dreams are born and time is never planned…”
Believe BIG my Soulife girls, this journey has just begun! Will you say yes? Will you allow yourself to dream again, and trust a Jesus who will never let you down? Who wants so much more for you than you ever imagined?
“…I’ve got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward-to Jesus. I’m off and running, and I’m not turning back.” (Philippians 3:14 MSG)
Never think small…Never look back…A world in need of brave love and care that only you can give is in front of you! Would love to hear from you…firstname.lastname@example.org
Until next time…May God breathe new life into your Soulife!!!